Best friend; Tara

yes, it may have been 5-7 years, but those years have been miserable. You may be just a cat, but you were my cat.
I wish every day for your life back, I cry almost every day. You're passing broke my heart.
I remember saying goodbye to you, waving as we drove away, off to school. My day was happy, until i came home to see you, lying still in the drive way. We parked on the road, mum yelled out dont look. Of course i looked anyway, and then my eyes met you. I was shocked and tears wouldnt come, but i forced them. I was angry at myself, why didnt these tears come at the start?
We got out and were told to go a long way towards the house. I crept towards you and was pulled away. By this point i could barely see, tears raced down my face. Mum let us in and i just ran to my room, i layed on my bed and cried out in pain. While i was doing that mum had grabbed a shovel and took you round back. Oscar didnt know what was happening, at least i dont think. He was a cat, but he stood by you, watched as ants ate at you. It was a horrible site and watching him be with you made it that much worse. I watched as dad dug a hole, big enough so the dog wouldnt get to your rotting body. Then you were layed inside and he asked if i had anything to say. I couldnt, cos i wouldnt and couldnt believe you were gone. I just cried and placed dirt upon you and i couldnt bare it, so i walked away. I'm sorry. If I could change anything, it'd be the way i treated your funeral.
Night upon night i'd cry and wish one more look at you. I believe I felt your presence on the end of my bed, but i coudnt see you. It had to be in the flesh. I helped myself get through the grieving; making scrapbooks and putting you anywhere possible. It was really hard on me because you were there, you thought you were human. Always laying on my bed, under the quilt, head on my pillow. You're absolutley gorgeous and i'll never ever forget you. Like i said, you're passing cut real deep. You'll always be my cat. Nothing will nor could they replace you. xo rest in peace bub.